what you thought.

Friday, December 23, 2011 7:07 PM

And what I think is totally different.
I thought when I had a DSLR & a laptop, I will be updating my blog like no one's business.
But, no, it's the total opposite!

I guess I'm just gonna go through all the pictures and post them up to tell stories...

The story so far, I finished my 2nd Semester on the 16th of December 2011!
Handed up the photo-book which had a little delay that really ticked me off.
Then, it was days of practicing at Sophira's place for my performance at my ex-school's prom.
First time sitting le bus to Bandar Utama..
Patience is the key word.
Practices were really fun, 3 days of practicing.
Me, Scott, Sophira and Swea Ching.

After all those practice, we attended Prom 2011 (joint prom of 3 schools)..
It was bloody dillematic, that I can assure you.
I was really nervous to perform too! Seems like all worlds are clashing.
Almost broke down at one point..
The performance went well, which was awesome.
It was my first time performing an acoustic song with piano, it was intense..
I was really cautious about the vocals I guess..
And also rapping live, it was great.
Neat response from the audience, considering, I only knew maybe 1/3 of them..
One thing was, I didn't take much pictures, I was so carried away by random things.
Somehow I forgot how to take pictures with people anymore. LOL.

So, right now, there's nothing due and ahead for me.
I have to start planning stuff.. and also face the inevitable..
Reconciling .. and dealing with all sorts of emotions that I've held back.
All I can say now is that I have to find some sort of magical way ..
To sort things out and really look at things really mindfully..
Not letting my ego get in the way .. and get my priorities, morality, wisdom all in line.

I've been slacking since the performance...
I said that I'm suppose to clean out all the shit .. but I haven't.
Someone needs to take a stand in this! BLAKE. TAKE A FREAKING STAND IN THIS! lol

Somehow, I'm really annoyed by myself,
Is this even possible? I'm sort of a perfectionist, which is hella annoying.
If I think it's not good enough (anything), I won't do it..
Unless I want, I have to put my all into it... lol
That affects my blog posts, rate of blogging, rate of posting pictures and etc, tbh.